Maybe i shouldn't say anything

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

Well, since the semester started, i've been knee deep in my work...especially for my screenwriting class. I am quite intrigued with the class, and I'm beginning to consider taking film or new media as a second major (cause im part looney, as well as in love with it) along with my english major.

But this isn't why i shoudln't say anything...the reason is the screenplay that i've chosen for my project in my screenwriting class. The screenplay is about how people "Shouldn't always see the forest for the trees." But we'll get back to that in a second.

The reason why im posting this is because i've begun to write my ideas down, and I'm seeing something come up: everyone seems to be encompassed with this. And by everyone, i do mean everyone...including myself. And it's something that we shouldn't put so much focus on. I've seen too many people smash themselves because of a dumb reason..."this guy doesn;t like me", or maybe "this group of people tends to not wanna hang out with me", or that "my mom doesn't wanna respect me, and won't understand me". It's especially bad on college campus' where i've noticed all of these dramas pretty much dictating lives when "people" should be dictating lives...not events.

I dunno, this may be one of my crusades, but i garuntee that 99% of you will agree in some sort with this, and agree that people should be more focused on themselves, rather than the dramas that make our lives so stressful.

I will also be brave enough to say that out of that 99% that says that, maybe less that 1% of that majority understand from my view.

Now, here's the thing...im not saying that you shouldn't have a little drama in our lives. Hell, ive had mine more than enough, but through the recent events in my lives, pretty much everybody i know has at some point within the last month has made a "mountain out of a molehill". When approached about them, i tell them one simple thing: "You don't have anything wrong...trust me."

Upon further inquiry with me, they get my whole story...and they shut it. For instance, a friend of mine came to me and said "Oh mike...i dunno waht's going on. Everything is so hard between 'so-and-so' not calling me and my tests. I just don't think i can take it anymore...it's such a tough life." Trust me...you can take a bit more. In fact, you can take about 27 times as much as i can take...thats how much you can take.

Now, maybe this is because im a hardass when it comes to human emotions. I think that people invest too much of themselves into certain things. And also, there is the flip side of my argument, that being a person who has lost touch with the emotions, and does things coldly and bitterly. Hell, i see it in myself, I see it at school, and yes...i see it here. Especially in this specific part of PO.

Now, don't get me wrong, there are people who have had their own problems, sometimes, worse than mine, but still there are just some people that make these astronomical problems out of pebbles and expect an effing symphony of angels to help emancipate them from this "horrible horrible" life. A friend of mine told me randomly one day when i came into school that he didn't know how i managed to walk with a smile ALL THE TIME, yet he knew that if he was at my point, he would have already destroyed something.

Now, the people here haven't reached that state...thank god, but still i see it all too often and, well, i just can't keep it to myself for some reason. Maybe I'm just itching to pick a fight...i hope not, but i told my friend while i was writing this that "Well, i think i may be picking fights with people tonight for no reason." When asked why...i said "Because...i need to get this off of my chest...it'll let me express myself better in my screenplay."

Most importantly, it'll allow me to capture the "zeitgeist," or Ghost of our Time, more clearly.

Anywho, i'm done venting. Like i said...if i've pushed any buttons, feel free to rebutle me. I'm up for it. In fact, you can IM me. I need to understand this a bit more anyways, and everyone's opinions help me a bit more.

Sorry for the inconvinence
~Mike

Akanari · Owns your reality Gender: Joined: 29 Sep 2004

:] Ah.

I'm glad you said something, Mike. This is good. I'm actually having the same problem with someone at the moment. I call it "misdirected rage."

But we've already somewhat talked about this. So yeah.

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

eh...its not really misdirected. It's actually directly exactly at a target...that being most everyone.

Blackmage · Posted: Thu Feb 16, 2006 3:58 am Post subject:

Society gotta love it. I work with and deal with the general public all day almost every day, I hate it, I have grown to loath people for the most part. It's sad to see the things some people whine about as you said. You should have heard the people standing next to me and Silvanus at Boca's and then the people even sitting next to us. It was almost to the point where we wanted to yell shut the fuck up at them becuase of their petty complaints and problems. I mean the things they were complaining about we're just unreasonibly stupid. But hey like I've told you before, if you need to talk I'll listen, just like you've told me. The best thing to do is vent, which I've found helps as I do it EVERY day at work.

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

well, id say i don't have to worry bout the venting part of it. Actually, this is my kind of venting (for those of you who thought i didn't ever have to vent.)

The only thing is that i really don't loathe people. Its just that I can't stand to see people make their lives harder than really is necessary.

that is all

Ming · DOOM! Gender: Joined: 13 Jan 2003

Akanari · Owns your reality Gender: Joined: 29 Sep 2004

No, I wasn't referring to misdirected rage on your part. I was talking about other people that have misdirected rage because they refuse to believe that they're even angry.

Tobias · *explodes* Age: 38 Gender: Joined: 17 Jan 2003

Nari: Gotcha

Bro: Eh...the thing is that after writing that, ive felt like ive alleviated a whole lot. I don't seem as pissed, and it allows me to focus on everything a bit more.

but hey, im happy once more. I just had a chip on my shoulder last night, and well, sometimes i need to get these things out of me. While it's not good to express the cynicism all the time, its also not good to keep it in all the time. That warps the inside. Sometimes, directing it out every now and then is healthy to an extent, despite the possible reprocussions.

Anywho, if anyone wants to still be up for a healthy argument, im up for it. Especially if you don't think what im saying is right.