Remember?

Katana · Posted: Tue Oct 28, 2003 1:44 am Post subject: Remember?

Just a little random peice of my mind lately...

There once was a time sometime in my existence that I didn't cry. The darkness didn't scare me, and I felt safe in my own skin. But, that time is not anymore. Love, the fleeting angel, has left my heart, leaving my fingers cold, my chest hollow, and my eyes soaked. It's about now that it hits me--This isn't right.
There is no way anyone could survive this sort of pain. Love is overrated. One day, I can only hope and pray to have it proved worthwhile to me, but no one can gaurantee that sort of happiness. There's so much entanglement in the ones we love, that when we rip away, we rip them hollow. And now I shiver as a creeping fear of lonliness eats away at me. This fear is the kind of fear that cannot be forgotten; The only hope I have is to hide under my covers and wait until morning.
Too many thoughts run through the head of the lovelorn. Was I not good enough? What did I miss? Am I not beautiful enough to suit your taste? I wonder where I go wrong, because I'm always left--Never leaving. But it never hurt like this before. This pain has drove me to wish to taste death, but I can never quite lick all the cyanide from my lips.
So now I leave, retreat back into myself, back into the recesses and cracks of my memories, visions of overgrown playgrounds. I'll return to a time when I was young, because skinned knees are easier to heal than broken hearts. I do not wish to have these sort of issues, and yet, I could not live without them. Love is the greatest pain I know, but it's beauty remains unmatched.

Terin · Huzzah! Gender: Joined: 27 Oct 2003

*snuggles with Katana* you aren't alone in lonliness. Take a little comfort in that, Wink

Lanfear57 · psycho kitty Gender: Joined: 09 Jun 2003

thats really... powerful
ive been there and back again, enough times to earn the t-shirt. not a lot of fun, but it makes you appreciate the good times even more.

BWS-1 · Otaku Lord Gender: Joined: 25 Sep 2002

Well ... as I read this I wonder if I shouldn't go delete the post I just made in the love... topic. It pretty much says in other words what Katana and Lanfear just said <_<. But I swear I didn't check that topic first! Anyway, I huh ... I can't think of ways of getting rid of that loneliness for myself, I don't think I can do good with someone else, I can only hope that you will find the strength to live passed that phase, and smile at life again.

*glomp

<_<