Down and out.

[Ming]

I don't know what it is, but lately I've been feeling this way. The worst part is that I don't really know what's causing it. As UP can attest, every so often lately I just get into these moods where I feel like I'm all alone in this great big world, and I feel like I'm unloved. Nothing seems to make me happy anymore, and I feel like I'm just wasting my life away.

I mean, I think part of it stems from the fact that I have to go back to school on Tuesday after nearly 5 weeks of vacation. What bothers me the most is that that was my last winter break ever, and I feel like I completely wasted it just like I feel like I completely wasted the summer. And, I'm already anticipating this last semester to be a rough one. All I have left is my spring break, and then that's it. It's school then into the working world shortly after. Which is, I guess, something else that's bothering me. I'm worried about graduating, and entering the "real" world. I feel like I'm inferior to everyone else who's graduating with me and I feel like I'm going to stuggle to find myself a job, and when I do, it's going to be lousy.

I know that sounds like a lot to be sad about, but I sense that there's something more. I just can't put my finger on what it is, and I'm tired of getting into these depressed moods, because I've noticed that they're getting more frequent and that they're starting to last longer.

And as I said before, I feel, especially right now, that I'm all alone. There's nobody out there who cares, no one out there to listen and bring comfort, and like every other challenge that I have to face, I have to do it by myself.

Thanks for reading.

~Ming

[Graillik Tur]

Ah...the 'mood'. It happens to everyone. And while I wish I could tell you there is a simple cure, there isn't.

The way I got out of it was I started working out, eating better, used every moment I had to do something, and convinced myself that I'm a bad ass and deserve only the best.

It's just a mental state you have to reach. And psychologically speaking everyone hates change. NO BODY likes having things change after they get used to a pattern. Your just at that stage in your life and your getting nervous.

Relax, grab a really high dollar bottle of scotch, a nice cigar, sit, relax, harmonize, and understand that you, as does everyone else, have a purpose and your gonna be alright.

Salut.

[Sketch]

We all have at some point or will at some point.. Have times where you'll feel this way.^_^ The important thing is your not alone. Think of all the people who care about you ^^ family, friends, and PO. That’s what this section of Po is for isn’t it… to get stuff off your chest and ask for advice or just to have people listen.

And you are in NO way inferior to all those other people who are graduating ^^ your a smart guy ^^hehe heck I couldn’t even spell physics..I mean ..PSYCHICS right? ;p

This is a theory …but its probably just hard cause you’re closing a chapter in your life and opening a new one. I was a bit down after I first graduated I believe it may have been for that reason.

^^ When you start to feel down and out think of all the things you have to be happy for. ^^ All the good things you’ve done... want to do. And will do

^_^ Count your blessings! And Number your dreams; if you work hard enough and believe in yourself, your dreams can come true. (As long as they are realistic goals ^_~)

< --- v_v that sounded soo lame.

[RiseOfZalman]

I'm with Graillik on that. Something we all run into every now and then. It's just a state of mind. You know a big change is coming, and your mind is kinda preparing for a major shock that it's expecting to happen.

Best thing you can do is make a goal for yourself to focus to keep your mind busy. No matter if it's a workout goal, a goal to get a project done you've been putting off, or even it's just a goal to try something new. Plus, by doing this, you're already slowly changing your normal every-day pattern, you'll be more ready for changes as they come.

[silverorb]

your post sounded like it could have come straight out of my mouth, so i completely understand where you're coming from. if these feelings are only recent and not something you've been battling with for at least a few years, maybe they're just transient and will subside once you get used to the idea of changes in your life or once you get back into the swing of school. i know this is all easier said than done, but don't beat yourself up for being uncomfortable with the idea of change. all people are uncomfortable with it. talking to people about your problems (which you're doing right now) is probably the best thing for you. it takes a lot to make such painful and personal feelings known to the world, and the fact that you're doing so is very brave and i think a pretty decent indicator that you'll start to cheer up soon. remember, you're a great guy and we all support you.
-katelyn

[Tobias]

Im gonan keep this brief, since you know im here to talk to ya whenever. Your my big brother, and you've set the standard that i need to fall into, and so far, your doing a great job at setting standards for me. Your one of the most linguistic, one of the most able-bodied, one of the hardest workers, and the greatest brother a little brother can grow up with. hey, youve been there for me the past 18 years, so im here for you now. If something is downing you out, you know im here, you know Rev is there for ya, you know Underpants is there for ya.

But most of all, you know that we all are there for ya. You aren't alone in the world, and all of us are living proof, especially Rev, UP, and I. Just remember that all you need to do to talk to any of us is pick up the phone, take a drive, or hell, just walk down the hallway and knock on my door.

Brother to brother, your the greatest thing that has happened in my life, since i could remember. Just remember that i love ya, big bro, and that whenever you have a problem, i'll be the first one to hear ya, and so will Rev and UP, as well as this whole community.

Just remember that Andy

That is all

~Mike