So apprently.. kei lost it.

[kei]

I seee... so I pretty much could of killed someone?

[Ming]

[BWS-1]

Keeping anything inside, good feelings or bad feelings, whatever it is, can only end up harming you in a near futur or in the long run. It's all about how to let things out. And we all have different ways of doing so. Now problem is that usually these ways can lead to physical damage to ourselves and/or our enviroment... or worst, other people.

To convert this destructive aggressivity into constructive one is a little tricky, it can take time and patience before feeling good in all this. It isn't bad to let the stress and anger out in a potentially destructive way, as long as you are ok with yourself in doing so, and aren't causing destruction to your enviroment that others might not like. But whatever your way is, make sure you feel better after. If you feel guilty, ashamed or disgusted over and over again, it might mean you are not feeling quite comfortable with the methods used. But since, as you said, it's the first time you felt that way, perhaps that alone is the cause of the shock and disgust.

Perhaps what might have cause you to almost lose it could be due to things that were kept inside for an undetermined period of time, or it can be other things, I know very little things about it all, so I can't accuratly help you, but I hope these words I wrote will allow you to help yourself.

[reaper]

I know a way that lets u mentally work through any stress u have and actually resolve it, at least for me it does

[Daijaga]

[kei]

I'd like to thank all of you helping me idenify my situation. I've leared some new things.