Bumblebee's "ARGH!!" Thread...

Bumblebee · Senior Otaku Age: 42 Gender: Joined: 21 Feb 2003

SO HEY!!! I WAS on the up and up last night...told myself that shit doesn't last forever and all this stuff, if I just put it aside and treat it like the small deal it was, would just eventually stop bugging me...
...so then an ex of mine sends me an IM insulting my weight and then insulting my problem WITH my exes....
Tell me. Am I NOT supposed to be happy at the moment? Am I supposed to be pissy for a week or some shit!? Like...what the fucking HELL is wrong with these people!?!? WHY THE FUCK DO PEOPLE HAVE TO PUSH MY FUCKING BUTTTONS!? Is it bad enough that we all KNOW where my buttons are!? Perhaps I just need to SHUT the FUCK up and be how I was in high school- just "BLAH". NO emotion, NO humo, NO nothing. Maybe I should just totally stop tryin to be "better" than I was in high school, and just be HOW I was in high school.
I'm so fucking tired of trying to be a good guy and gettin fucked over by people in the end. So much of me is tensed and frustrated. My eating is officially fucked up and when I DO eat, it makes me wanna throw up or come out that other end. It's like my body FORGOT what food is, and won't accept it.
I don't need this shit. I need Dreamwave to send me more work- to get a computer in my room with net access; lock my room up, and just work 24/7, 365 days a year, 52 weeks straight and on and on.

Hhhhhhhhh. It's immature, I know. This shit will phase out soon. Even if it's a whole fuckin month, when that month is over, it will have all flown by.

I am just sooooooo fucking annoyed right now. Sex, alcohol, pencil and paper. In any order, 3 times a day(10 times a day for the art). I just need to relax. Massages, sex, yoga, everything. I have more fucking knots in my back than a boyscout's shoelace.

Silver Adept · Otaku Lord Age: 42 Gender: Joined: 20 May 2003

Actually, to offer some totally un-asked for advice, my suggestion is that you go out for a bit. Park, movie, whatever, just go out and do something that will take your mind off things. I've found that sometimes violent video games work well when trying to relieve stress, especially when set on a proper difficulty level. Go read a book you've been meaning to. Then, at least for a little while, the problems go away (which is why I suggested going out. If you can't be reached, they can't get to you.)

Bumblebee · Senior Otaku Age: 42 Gender: Joined: 21 Feb 2003

Thanks for the help and advice; means a lot t'me : D.
Got outta my horrible mood last Saturday thanks to a good friend in California.

I am RARELY so easily swayed from my horrible moods...but she did a rather swift job of it all x_x
Thanks again all. Everything that you people said contributed to my gettin over it. danke!

Daijaga · Chosen of Luck Gender: Joined: 17 Dec 2003

*cheering from the bleachers*

I wish I had something useful to contirbute >_<. Man it seems like some people just don't know when to leave you the hell alone. No worries here though, mate, I'll be looking forward to seeing you in Atlanta later this year. Cheers mate!

Silver Adept · Otaku Lord Age: 42 Gender: Joined: 20 May 2003

Always good to know that you're feeling better. Friends can help you feel better very easily. We're all glad to have been of help, and don't hesitate to call on the Pocket Otaku Listening Squad again, ya?

Bumblebee · Senior Otaku Age: 42 Gender: Joined: 21 Feb 2003

NOPE!!! Nevermind. It's back. A little harder now : D. THANK YOU, to people who can't apologize for shit and have to run around sparkin' stuff back up >D. HOLLAH!!

Shino · Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 7:49 am Post subject:

D00d Bee, I'm sorry you are dealing with this shit right now. Doot tried to tell me a little of what was going on last night. But I didn't get that far into it.

I hope you get everything worked out. Doot and I are both around all the time if you want to chat. I have delt with bullshit like that before. It's not fun. Just know that you always have a home here at PO, and as far as I'm concerned, in Georgia!