What did I do to deserve this?

Venus · PO Skirtdropper Gender: Joined: 19 Sep 2004

Alright, Im sitting there sick enough as it is...I find a ray of sunshine in my day whenever someone pops on and says Hi to me. I havent gotten to do much of anything all day, so it puts a smile on my face. And from there...It seems like Everything went into retrograde and I feel like my world has crashed and burned into a nearby galaxy never to return again.. I know I'll get over it with time, but i keep asking myself over and over..."What did I do to deserve this? If I was a better person, would this have happened or would it all turn itself around? I mean, come on, I know I do things wrong, but why me? Why me?". Images, songs, older memories...run through my head as it runs circles around the pain that I feel. I know I will get over it with time, and im sure of that, but one time in my life....I want to hold onto something I need to forget..and as much as I know that....I still seem to grasp onto the fake reality that I have created in mind and I cant seem to figure out what way to go, or what way to turn, or even if I should go the way that I just thought. Im so confused, and im hurting right now. I cant numb the pain with anything but the truth, and even then, it burns through...This torment takes its toll once more.

GAAZ · MOD Black Sheep Commander Gender: Joined: 14 Oct 2002

Yes!

That being said I wish I could pop on and tell ya, "Hi" because as everyone on the board knows I am the ray of sunshine for everyone here...MWAHAHA!

But as the saying goes, "God never shuts a door without opening a window." And for you aetheists, "*Blank* never closes a (euphamism for fate or some kind of direction) without opening a (Another euphamism for another journey in a different direction.)

Girkon · Chop Chop Fiend Gender: Joined: 29 Sep 2004

There is truth in friends too. Mod knows you didn't deserve any of the bad things, but you got people here, and as Gaaz so elequently put. The light will shine for you and you can feel that warmth. We keep you close and hope for you ^ ^

Sperrit · Chosen of Earth Gender: Joined: 16 Oct 2002

Listen, Venus, bad things happen to everyone, some more than others. Sometimes there are reasons we can understand, sometimes there aren't. The point is to always work towards something better, a dream, a better life and that as much as you probably don't deserve all the troubles that you recieve, so long as you work through them things will work out. No one has bad luck forever, not unless they let it happen.

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Selrahc the Evil · true Evil's creator Joined: 18 Mar 2003

hang in there venus bad things happen to good people sometimes heck I'm one of those bad things that happen to good..er..I mean to bad..er.......I one of those bad things that can happen to people.
but I hope that you feel better.